Wanting to Die

Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.

I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.

Then the almost unnameable lust returns.

Even then I have nothing against life.

I know well the grass blades you mention,

The furniture you have placed under the sun.

But,

suicides have a special language.

Like carpenters they want to know which tools.

They never ask why build.

-Anne Sexton

Dorothy Parker didn't know what she was talking about.

Go with a gun. 95% success rate, higher if you "eat it". The success rate for pills is around 3%.

Stepping in front of a Metro train is 100% fatal. Very much like the opening scene in "Orphan Black" S01E01. But, like jumping off a high place you involve others in your exit. It's RUDE and selfish. That's a LOT of trauma for the driver of the train.

Whatever you do, BE CERTAIN then COMMIT.

I decided long ago. That like a Roman or a Samurai, if I am going, it will be by falling on my sword.